JobQuest: Coda
Apr. 4th, 2011 11:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
I am not a scientist.
I am not in a job where I am doing science, particularly not the kind of ecological sciences that I thought was my calling.
For years, for decades, I had I Am A Scientist, and if I am not Doing Science, I am Wasting My Life carved on my soul.
And because of that, I wasted my life.
But you know what?
I Got Over Myself.
I Am Not A Scientist. I Am Not Doing Science.
And I am finally Doing Something With My Life, because I have let that go.
I am in a position to make good use of my skills and experience. I am in a position to do some good with the second half of my life.
Hell, that's right there at the top of my resume:
I am there. I've got that.
And it's not at all the job I saw for myself. It's not the job I was expecting.
Life surprised me.
And Life is Good.
Allow yourself the possibility of surprise.
Edit: On reading this the next morning, I realize I didn't clearly state something very important:
I Am Not A Scientist. I Am Not Doing Science.
I am not "following my dream"—but I love my job.
I haven't "settled". This is not "disappointment".
I am in a job that leaves me engaged, fulfilled and, at the end of more days than not, happy.
Life surprised me, and Life is Good.
I am not in a job where I am doing science, particularly not the kind of ecological sciences that I thought was my calling.
For years, for decades, I had I Am A Scientist, and if I am not Doing Science, I am Wasting My Life carved on my soul.
And because of that, I wasted my life.
But you know what?
I Got Over Myself.
I Am Not A Scientist. I Am Not Doing Science.
And I am finally Doing Something With My Life, because I have let that go.
I am in a position to make good use of my skills and experience. I am in a position to do some good with the second half of my life.
Hell, that's right there at the top of my resume:
Coast Guard veteran with degrees in Earth Systems Science and Biotechnology seeks a position that will integrate his education and experience, to make positive change in the world.
I am there. I've got that.
And it's not at all the job I saw for myself. It's not the job I was expecting.
Life surprised me.
And Life is Good.
Allow yourself the possibility of surprise.
Edit: On reading this the next morning, I realize I didn't clearly state something very important:
I Am Not A Scientist. I Am Not Doing Science.
I am not "following my dream"—but I love my job.
I haven't "settled". This is not "disappointment".
I am in a job that leaves me engaged, fulfilled and, at the end of more days than not, happy.
Life surprised me, and Life is Good.
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Date: 2011-04-05 09:20 pm (UTC)