I'd like to thank
beerhorse, whose recent discussions of Joseph Campbell's Hero With A Thousand Faces helped trigger the recent turn-around in my emotional state:
I read about how the Hero is sent upon his/her quest. When the Hero accepts the quest and moves forward, it goes well for them. When the Hero denies the quest, they wind up on it anyway, but the journey is much more difficult and not very pleasant.That pretty much sums up the last ten-to-twelve months of my life perfectly. I turned away from my calling, and I've been pretty much wrapped up in anger and discontent and self-loathing because of it. Hero is one of my all-time favorite non-fiction books; I've read it half a dozen times or more. I should know this; in fact, on some level, I did know this. It just took Dalia's elegant phrasing to give me the much-needed kick in the head. Leave it to a Clydesdale....
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Date: 2006-02-11 07:14 pm (UTC)I don't know if it will work for anyone else, but in my case it helps to just sit down every so often and ask myself whether I'm unhappy or angry. If so, it's time to investigate further. Because there is always a reason, whether I know it or not.
What's scary is how anger and unhappiness can creep in so slowly I never see them coming. You wouldn't think it would be possible for your whole world to go crap-colored without your really noticing, but for me it can.
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